Sunshine, the Dark Cloud

"You block your dreams when you allow your fear to grow bigger than your faith" - Mary Manin Morrisey

I'm so afraid of the road ahead. I don't know why - there really shouldn't be any notion of the irrationality of fear. But that is the essence of fear, isn't it? It's irrational. We know that what we fear is something which, for the most part, won't harm us. Nevertheless, we fear it. I am afraid of that which confronts me, and I do not know how to overcome it. I can only hope that in the next few months I, as in the ever-understanding, self aware notion of I that Descartes proclaims, can overcome the me. 

 

In me I find blackness

Fail, child

Cry, child

You are not good enough. 

In me, I find hurt. 

They will never love you the way you want to be loved. 

They will never understand. 

In I, there lies untold strength. 

I will surmount this. 

Behind me, I hide

In I, there lies pride. 

I am better than the me-diocrity of me

 

My heart stands broken

My spirit stands shaken 

but I will not let this be the end. 

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” - Marianne Williamson 

I will be liberated.excavated.vindicated.